Things have gotten to a point where I never imagined. The though of a break up never crossed my mind, but here we are. Not sure when things started going wrong, but they did. So I’ll stay in the apartment and he’ll be leaving. Again, something that never crossed my mind.
I spent many nights sobbing and aching for that closeness back… But to no avail. It hurts that I have to see him everyday But I know the hurt will pass. This is not to say I didn’t try, I tried so hard to move on and make us work again, but he refused. I may get blamed for everything going wrong, but as they say, “it takes two to tango.” I am not solely at fault here, and it’s taken me a good bit of time to realize this. Now that i have, I know I can move on. I can be happy without him. I can make my way in life without him.
This is not to say I’m not grateful for what he did do when we were fine. I know I’ll still cherish those memories. I know he’ll still have a place in my heart, as much as it hurts.